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I need lucid dreaming. I need to be able to vent frustrations through violent and/or sexual dreams...

Sun, 19 May 2013 02:03:15 -0700

I need lucid dreaming.

I need to be able to vent frustrations through violent and/or sexual dreams where I get to hurt people

I need to be able to take the control and let sadistic niggling urges run free

Maybe that will only make RL worse, if I’m always looking forward to escaping to dreams

Unhealthy

I want to whine in distress and writhe on the floor, but that requires the effort of me getting out...

Sun, 19 May 2013 01:50:21 -0700

I want to whine in distress and writhe on the floor, but that requires the effort of me getting out of my fucking computer chair.

I want to have a moment of black out rage where I come to and discover that I’ve beaten the living shit out of someone who made me angry.

I want to not be tired all the time. I want to be able to work hard and get more money. I want to I want I want I want

I want I want

I want

Fuck, that’s selfish

I hate my job. I hate knowing that I will pretty much always be unsatisfied with whatever job I have...

Sun, 19 May 2013 01:39:56 -0700

I hate my job.

I hate knowing that I will pretty much always be unsatisfied with whatever job I have down the line of my life.

I hate that everything I want to do with life hinges on making money.

Visit my girlfriend?: Money

Visit my best friend?: Money

Buy them both things because they deserve them?: Money.

I’m too stubborn to put up with a job that makes me mad.

I’ll probably do something stupid and get myself in trouble.

I already got written up at work because I was too stubborn to give a reason for why I was being slow.

It’s not my (assistant) boss’s business that I recently started birth control and anti-anxiety meds.

I don’t want them to feel like I’m making excuses, so I won’t give them any.

One day I’ll sit my family down and tell them that I write slash all day on the internet just...

Sun, 19 May 2013 01:25:43 -0700

One day I’ll sit my family down and tell them that I write slash all day on the internet just to watch their faces.

Though I think they already know

I don’t like musicals. The combination of singing and acting makes me incredibly antsy and...

Sun, 19 May 2013 01:24:13 -0700

I don’t like musicals.

The combination of singing and acting makes me incredibly antsy and uncomfortable.

Ok fine, I’ll just go on a text post spree.

Sun, 19 May 2013 01:22:56 -0700

Ok fine, I’ll just go on a text post spree.

Wooh, I’ve reached the point in the evening when I no longer give any fucks. Apathetic and...

Sun, 19 May 2013 01:16:49 -0700

Wooh, I’ve reached the point in the evening when I no longer give any fucks.

Apathetic and bored, give me asks.

Deep philosophical shit, whether or not I like pudding, I don’t care (obviously; see apathy).

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Sun, 19 May 2013 01:08:49 -0700

miss-nerdgasmz: What ship do you think I’m the child of? #oH FUCKING YES #PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE I’M...

Sun, 19 May 2013 01:07:09 -0700

miss-nerdgasmz:

What ship do you think I’m the child of?

#oH FUCKING YES #PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE I’M SO CURIOUS #CROSSOVERS COUNT BTW LIKE IT DOESN’T HAVE TO BE A STANDARD SHIP OR ANYTHING#WHICHEVER PEOPLE YOU THINK MADE ME

raratumtugger: I want to hug you (◕‿◕✿) And kiss you (◡‿◡✿) And maybe bite you just a...

Sun, 19 May 2013 00:53:50 -0700

raratumtugger:

I want to hug you (◕‿◕✿)

And kiss you (◡‿◡✿)

And maybe bite you just a little (⊙‿⊙✿)

vegansanfrancishet: So, I paint my nails pretty regularly these...

Sun, 19 May 2013 00:52:52 -0700

vegansanfrancishet:

So, I paint my nails pretty regularly these days. I also work as a barista/cashier pretty regularly these days. A few weeks back, I had a customer come in, a fairly typical, sheltered, suburban soccer mom, and she ordered a latte from me. She saw my brightly colored nails and said, “Wow, you’re so brave! My son asked me about painting his nails, and if it’s okay for boys to do that. Now I’ll tell him there’s a cool guy who does it too!” It was a nice moment, very cute.

Then, last week, she came in again, and said, “Hey, I’m so glad you’re here! I want you to meet someone!” She then brings her son forward, and says, “Okay sweetie, show him what you did!” And he throws his hands up, showing off his bright, sparkling blue nails. He shows them off, and I show mine off to him. He smiles. We fist bump.

Guys, I’ve only wanted to cry once at work before, and that was when someone ordered a large dry soy cappuccino on ice.

This time, though. This was a good cry.

scvlptures: depression is when you don’t really care about anything anxiety is when you care too...

Sun, 19 May 2013 00:29:51 -0700

scvlptures:

depression is when you don’t really care about anything

anxiety is when you care too much about everything

and having both is just like what

chinkerbelle: Reasons I grab my boobs running upstairs running downstairs running stoked on...

Sun, 19 May 2013 00:20:29 -0700

chinkerbelle:

Reasons I grab my boobs

running upstairs

running downstairs

running

stoked on life

scared

walking through my house in the dark

bored

boobs

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Sun, 19 May 2013 00:10:40 -0700

lesbiansandthelivingdead: sheisahopelessromantic: marrymyface: bisexual guys are assumed to be...

Thu, 16 May 2013 21:04:49 -0700

lesbiansandthelivingdead:

sheisahopelessromantic:

marrymyface:

bisexual guys are assumed to be secretly gay

bisexual girls are assumed to be secretly straight

both are assumed to secretly like men

see what i’m getting at?

#men in society: forever believing that the world revolves around their dicks #talk about egocentricism

Don’t forget that gay men are gay because they lacked a “strong male figure”. And lesbians either haven’t found the right man or are gay because of a guy.

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Thu, 16 May 2013 20:57:27 -0700

send me a fruit

Thu, 16 May 2013 20:53:28 -0700

Strawberry - I’m in love with you.
Cherry - I love you.
Watermelon - I think you’re cute.
Blueberry - You’re amazing.
Kiwi- You’re pretty
Raspberry - You’re hot.
Plum - I would fuck you.
Paopu Fruit - I would date you.
Grapes - I could stay on your blog for hours.
Lemon - You are my tumblr crush.
Orange - I want to get to know you.
Tangerine - We have a lot in common.
Lemon - I wish you would notice me.
Lime - I don’t talk to you but I really love your blog.
Except dont send me actual fruit... I am allergic...

"Why Society Still Needs Feminism Because to men, a key is a device to open something. For women,..."

Thu, 16 May 2013 20:45:58 -0700

“

Why Society Still Needs Feminism

Because to men, a key is a device to open something. For women, it’s a weapon we hold between our fingers when we’re walking alone at night.

Because the biggest insult for a guy is to be called a “pussy,” a “little bitch” or a “girl.” From here on out, being called a “pussy” is an effing badge of honor.

Because last month, my politics professor asked the class if women should have equal representation in the Supreme Court, and only three out of 42 people raised their hands.

Because rape jokes are still a thing.

Because despite being equally broke college kids, guys are still expected to pay for dates, drinks and flowers.

Because as a legit student group, Campus Fellowship does not allow women to lead anything involving men. Look, I know Eve was dumb about the whole apple and snake thing, but I think we can agree having a vagina does not directly impact your ability to lead a
college organization.

Because it’s assumed that if you are nice to a girl, she owes you sex — therefore, if she turns you down, she’s a bitch who’s put you in the “friend zone.” Sorry, bro, women are not machines you put kindness coins into until sex falls out.

Because only 29 percent of American women identify as feminist, and in the words of author Caitlin Moran, “What part of ‘liberation for women’ is not for you? Is it freedom to vote? The right not to be owned by the man you marry? The campaign for equal pay? Did all that good shit get on your nerves? Or were you just drunk at the time
of the survey?”

Because when people hear the term feminist, they honestly think of women burning bras. Dude, have you ever bought a bra? No one would burn them because they’re freaking
expensive.

Because Rush Limbaugh.

Because we now have a record number of women in the Senate … which is a measly 20 out of 100. Congrats, USA, we’ve gone up to 78th place for women’s political representation, still below China, Rwanda and Iraq.

Because recently I had a discussion with a couple of well-meaning Drake University guys, and they literally could not fathom how catcalling a woman walking down University Avenue is creepy and sexist.
Could. Not. Fathom.

Because on average, the tenured male professors at Drake make more than the tenured female professors.

Because more people on campus complain about chalked statistics regarding sexual assault than complain about the existence of sexual assault. Priorities? Have them.

Because 138 House Republicans voted against the Violence Against Women Act. All 138 felt it shouldn’t provide support for Native women, LGBT people or immigrant women. I’m kind of confused by this, because I thought LGBT people and women of color were also human beings.
Weird, right?

Because a girl was roofied last semester at a local campus bar, and I heard someone say they think she should have been more careful. Being drugged is her fault, not the fault of the person who put drugs in her drink?

Because Chris Brown beat Rihanna so badly she was hospitalized, yet he still has fans and bestselling songs and a tattoo of an abused woman on his neck.

Because out of 7 billion people on the planet, more than 1 billion women will be raped or beaten in their lifetimes. Women and girls have their clitorises cut out, acid thrown on them and broken bottles shoved up them as an act of war. Every second of every day. Every corner of the Earth.

Because the other day, another friend of mine told me she was raped, and I can no longer count on both my hands the number of friends who have told me they’ve been sexually assaulted. Words can’t express how scared I am that I’m getting used to this.

Because a brief survey of reality will tell you that we do not live in a world that values all people equally and that sucks in real, very scary ways. Because you know we live in a sexist world when an awesome thing with the name “feminism” has a weird connotation. Because if I have kids someday, I want my son to be able to have emotions and play dress up, and I want my daughter to climb trees and care more about what’s in her head than what’s on it. Because I don’t want her to carry keys between her fingers at night to
protect herself.

Because feminism is for everybody, and this is your official invitation.

”

- Caitlin O’Donnell, Drake University. (via funeral-march)

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